12 July 2008

Over You

Over You
(Chris Daughtry)

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down
Like an old abadoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, More than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

I'm putting my heart back together
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

29 November 2006

funny human beings


A man asked my friend Jaime Cohen: "What is the human being's funniest characteristics?"

Cohen said: "Our contradictoriness. We are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood. We make ourselves ill earning money, and then we spend all our money on getting well again. We think so much about the future that we neglect the present, and thus experience neither the present nor the future. We live as if we were never going to die, and die as if we had never lived."



(*Excerpt from Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho)

25 October 2006

seeds of success

God, I thank you for this day.

I know I have not accomplished as yet all you expect of me and if that is your reason for bathing me in the fresh dew of another dawn, I am most grateful.

I am prepared, at last, to make you proud of me.

I will forget yesterday, with all its trials into tribulations, aggravations and setbacks, angers and frustrations. The past is already a dream from which I can neither retrieve a single word nor erase any foolish deeds.

I will resolve, however, that if I have injured anyone yesterday through my thoughtlessness, I will not let this day's sun set before I make amends, and nothing I do today will be of greater importance.

I will not fret the future. My success and happiness does not depend on straining to see what lurks dimly on the horizon but to do, this day, what lies clearly ahead.

I will treasure this day, for it is all I have. I know that its rushing hours cannot be accumulated or stored, like precious grain, for future use.

I will live as all good actors do when they are onstage - only in the moment. I cannot perform at my best today by regretting my previous act's mistakes or worrying about the scene to come.

I will embrace today's difficult tasks, take off my coat, and make dust in the world. I will remember that the busier I am, the less harm I am apt to suffer, the tastier will be my food, the sweeter my sleep, and the better satisfied I will be with my place in the world.

I will free myself today from slavery to the clock and calendar. Although I will plan this day in order to conserve my steps and energy, I will begin to measure my life in deeds, not years; in thoughts, not seasons; in feelings, not figures on a dial.

I will remain aware of how little it takes to make this a happy day. Never will I pursue happiness, because it is not a goal, just a by-product, and there is no happiness in having or in getting, only in giving.

I will run from no danger I might encounter today, because I am certain that nothing will happen to me that I am not equipped to handle with your help. Just as any gem is polished by friction, I am certain to become more valuable through this day's adversities, and if you close one door, you always open another for me.

I will live this day as if it were Christmas. I will be a giver of gifts and deliver to my enemies the gift of forgiveness; my opponents, tolerance; my friends, a smile; my children, a good example, and every gift will be wrapped with unconditional love.

I will waste not even a precious second today in anger or hate or jealousy or selfishness. I know that the seeds I sow I will harvest, because every action, good or bad, is always followed by an equal reaction. I will plant only good seeds this day.

I will treat today as a priceless violin. One may draw harmony from it and another, discord, yet no one will blame the instrument. Life is the same, and if I play it correctly, it will give forth beauty, but if I play it ignorantly, it will produce ugliness.

I will condition myself to look on every problem I encounter today as no more than a pebble in my shoe. I remember the pain, so harsh I could hardly walk, and recall my surprise when I removed my shoe and found only a grain of sand.

I will work convinced that nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm. To do anything today that is truly worth doing, I must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in with gusto and scramble through as well as I can.

I will face the world with goals set for this day, but they will be attainable ones, not the vague, impossible variety declared by those who make a career of failure. I realize that you always try me with a little, first, to see what I would do with a lot.

I will never hide my talents. If I am silent, I am forgotten, if I do not advance, I will fall back. If I walk away from a challenge today, my self-esteem will be forever scarred, and if I cease to grow, even a little, I will become smaller. I reject the stationary position because it is always the beginning of the end.

I will keep a smile on my face and in my heart even when it hurts today. I know that the world is a looking glass and gives back to me the reflection of my own soul. Now I understand the secret of correcting the attitude of others and that is to correct my own.

I will turn away from temptation today that might cause me to break my word or lose my self-respect. I am positive that the only thing I possess more valuable than my life is my honor.

I will work this day with all my strength, content in the knowledge that life does not consist of wallowing in the past or peering anxiously at the future. It is appalling to contemplate the great number of painful steps by which one arrives at atruth so old, so obvious, and so frequently expressed. Whatever it offers, little or much, my life is now.

I will pause whenever I am feeling sorry for myself today, and remember that this is the only day I have and I must play it to the fullest. What my part may signify in the great whole, I may not recognize, but I am here to play it and now is the time.

I will count this day a separate life. I will remember that those who have fewest regrets are those who take each moment as it comes for all it is worth.

This is my day!

These are my seeds.

Thank you, God, for the precious garden of time.

(written by og mandino.. handed by my exceptional english teacher in high school.. May God bless his soul..)

12 July 2006


dear reader,

may tanong sana ako tungkol sa mga multo/mumu.. aminado ako, matatakutin ako pagdating dyan.. lalo na pagsapit ng dilim, kung ano ano naiimagine ko -- na may nakatayo sa dulong pinto; na kapag nakatalikod ako, may nagmamasid sa kin; na kapag natutulog ako, may nakatayo sa tabi ng kama ko.. na may hihigit sa paa ko kapag lumampas sa kama.. ganyan, mga typical scenes sa movies.. matapang ako manuod, duwag ako in real life.. =p

nun bata pa ko, ang sabi kase (at kakapanuod ng "Pinoy Thriller", "Halimaw sa Banga" at "Magandang Gabi, Bayan!" tuwing Nov. 1.. hehe), nagpaparamdam lang naman daw sila kapag may gusto ipahiwatig.. kaya dapat daw kausapin at alamin kung ano hiling nila.. usually, humihiling daw ng dasal para maging mapayapa yun mumu..

pero weirdo kase kukote ko pagdating sa mga mumu.. mas heightened senses ko kapag nasa pinas.. pero kapag out of the country ako for a project assignment, "nde ako gaano" natatakot.. ang takbo kase ng utak ko -- di din kami magkakaintindihan ng local na mumu kung kausapin ko**.. baket?!?.. kase iniisip ko, pano ko sya kakausapin? sa language nila, english, o tagalog?

ang tanong ko po.. kapag napunta ka ba sa ibang bansa, kung ano local language, yun lang maiintindihan ng mumu? or kapag mumu na, may super powers makaintindi ng different languages (cool to!.. hehe)? ano po sa tingin mo? =)


(* pasensya na sa topic.. magisa ako sa flat eh, mumu pumasok sa isip ko kagabi.. =p
** epektib thinking to! nababawasan takot ko.. =p)

09 July 2006

salam alaikum!

im back!.. greetings from Africa.. Africa?!?.. yup, you read that right.. san sa Africa? may forest ba dyan? may animals? uy, safari!!!.. hehehe.. yan ang mga usual na tanong/reaction ng sangkatauhan kapag naririnig kung asan lupalop ako ng mundo.. eto po ang kwento ko.. =)

Khartoum, Sudan
- Sudan!?? yan ba yun palaging nasa news?!?.. yun magulo?!.. oo, eto yun!.. sikat ang bansang ito, nde dahil sa safari, kung nde dahil sa mga rebels sa Darfur region.. kung tutuusin delikado dito, pero nadadala pa naman sa dasal.. hehe.. =p

Hot! Hot! Hot!
- "How's the place, chuy?".. isa syang malaking frying pan!.. yan ang una kong naisip na description ng tanungin ako.. suuuupeeer init!.. kung sa pinas, nagrereklamo ang mga tao kapag mainit (usually 28-32°C), pano pa kaya kung
40-45°C!!!.. imagine that!.. first few wks ko, kamot dito, kamot dyan.. kase yun init, masakit sa balat.. soobrang dry.. nagka-rashes tuloy ako.. sana nga umulan na lang ng lotion.. =p

Trick or Treat!
- delicacy nila dito ang espasol at pulburon.. huh? meron dyan espasol at pulburon?!.. meron!!.. pagdating mo sa opisina, mararamdaman mo na parang espasol mukha mo sa sobrang alikabok.. at kung ikaw yun tipong chikador, mabubusog ka sa pulburon.. dahil malulunok mo na lahat ng alikabok sa paligid.. yan ang treat!.. soooobrang alikabok dito.. halos kulay brown na ang paligid.. ano ang trick?! wala! walang trick.. di mo matatakasan ang alikabok.. kahit sa loob ng bahay, pumapasok.. =p

Menu, please!
- may freebies naman kaming nakukuha dito.. pakain kami ng client, lunch & dinner.. swerte di ba?.. so, what's for lunch? -- beef cubes/fish fillet + bread + drinks.. ang saya!.. how about dinner?.. for dinner we have chicken + bread + drinks.. ok naman pala.. well, most likely kung peyborit mo yun food, soobrang swerte mo.. why?! kase that's our menu for EVERYDAY!.. hehe.. in fairness, nagbabago naman yun drinks at lalagyan.. =)

- di ba may malaria at yellow fever dyan?.. hmm.. meron din.. sa awa ng Diyos, di kami tinatalaban.. hehe.. uso din ang hepa dito.. hepa?!? yup, hepa!.. may hepa ang tubig dito.. =D nun una di ko napapansin, tingin ko clear sya.. pero minsan maglaba ako sa puting washing machine, dun ko nakita na dilaw ang tubig.. kung tutuusin, malinis pa yan.. malas kapag kulay brown.. =D kaya pagdating sa paliligo, iba na lang iniimagine ko, para di ko maisip na madumi din pinapaligo ko.. =)

Top Up!
- uso naman cellphone dito, nde lang nga ganun ka-OK yun telecomms.. nde ko din alam kung may pre-paid sila.. ang tinutukoy ko na pre-paid ay yun kuryente nila.. pre-paid na kuryente?!?.. yup yup!.. astig noh?!?.. kaya pwede imonitor ang konsumo sa kuryente.. kaya if ever biglang magbrownout, isa lang ibig sabihin nun -- ubos na load mo, pre!.. di pa yata uso ang pasa-load.. hehe.. =p

- yun amo namin dito, kakaiba!.. masungit!.. sya nagbibigay ng oras kung kelan ka uuwi, kesehodang tambak ang trabaho mo.. kapag sinabi nyang uwian na, uwi na!.. inconsiderate!.. bawal sya paghintayin.. kapag pinaghintay mo sya, ipapahiwatig nya ang galit nya sa pagdadabog.. bawal magreason-out.. bawal magsabi.. sobrang strict!.. ganyan ang amo namin dito.. tsk tsk.. ay teka, nasabi ko bang ang amo dito ay yun driver namin?!? walang sinabi ang project manager.. =p

- sand storms.. yup, nakita ko na.. pero mahina lang naman.. tipong sand storm signal #1!.. hehe.. kapag ganito, parang ghost town sa labas.. puro alikabok.. malabo ang palagid.. pagdating mo naman sa bahay, puro alikabok din kama mo.. haha!.. =D
- saturday - thursday ang working hours dito.. 5 hrs difference sa Manila

- black ang mga tao.. medyo questionable ang hygiene.. pero mababait sila..
- ang shampoo at sabon dito, nde masyado bumubula.. kapag naglaba ka or naligo, parang, wala lang.. hehe..

Welcome to Sudan, folks!.. =)

(some facts on Sudan:

08 July 2005

things a man should know

i find women's magazine appealing but i find guy's magazine more intriguing & interesting.. somehow it's one way of peeking into a guy's world & mind..

for the lack of reading material in the hotel's lounge, i happen to chance upon a copy of Esquire magazine.. nothing special about it, just a fashion magazine like any other girl's mag.. added with articles about a famous guy, toys for the big boys (i.e. cars, gadgets).. but these arent the reasons why i kept reading more.. it's this column intended to make men know the things they should know (about women, etiquette, money, sex, marriage, etc).. cited with truthfulness, presented with wit, composed by some of the well-known women in the entertainment industry..

here's a few to stimulate your curiousity..

-->> things a man should know (about women) <<--
- One follow-up to an unreturned phone call is acceptable; two is stalking.

- Dont kiss and tell, even if you're really proud of yourself.

- With the exception of Bill Clinton, we think nothing's hotter than a man who's honest.

- Love does not mean never having to say you're sorry. It means having to say you're sorry over and over again, in new & different ways, every day, every week, every month, even when you dont want to, every year, until God grants you His mercy and you finally, blissfully, die. (over naman 'to)

- Women who have two or more brothers are less likely to be disgusted by you.

- Women can tell if a man is the kind of man who likes women.

- If you ask about her previous boyfriend & she gets a small, wistful smile on her face, change the subject. (buti pa nga.. baka tamaan ang ego nyo)

- Never let her arrive at an event alone.

- Her job is just as important as yours.

- If she works out, compliment her muscles.

- When asked if she looks fat, even if it's the one thousandth time, you must always at the ready with an immediate, confident "Of course you dont look fat!".

- No, you were not looking at the other woman. (common excuse!)

- Only acceptable pickup line: "Hi, my name is [your real name]. What's yours?"

- More than anything else, women want you to make them laugh. (i agree!)

- Women are less excited about sleeping with another woman for your viewing pleasure than you are. (the feeling is mutual, kapag kayo with another guy)

- In fact, we would be interested in a threesome. The kind with two guys -- you and Brad Pitt. And you wait outside. (haha!)

- Wishful thinking is bad for your relationship.

- Avoid a woman who competes with her mother or her sister. Embrace a woman who is best friends with either.

- Women dislike men who are liars. ('nuff said)

- No matter how furtive or quick the glance, a woman always knows when you're looking at her breasts. (may built-in sensor kami.. hehe)

- Contrary to popular belief, an out-of-shape man is just as unappealing to a woman as an out-of-shape woman is to a man.

- It's pointless to argue with her if you're not going to win. You're not going to win. (kaya, ziiip it!)

- A good woman is as excited about a gift that costs nothing as she is about a gift that costs a lot.

- Women have to pay more for their haircuts, dry cleaning, & shoes, and this upsets them.

- Women have to buy new outfits, & this makes them happy. (money cant buy happiness, that's what shopping is for!)

- While yes sometimes means no, no always means no. (period!. wag na mamimilit)

- Women, much like men, are human, & thus appreciate it when you ask them questions about themselves. (it shouldnt always be about you)

- Never ask a woman why she's mad at you, as she will only get madder at your not knowing. (hehe)

- We've slept with guys way less attractive than you who didnt work half as hard as you did to get it. They were just more screwed up than you. It's called sympathy f--k. (doesnt apply to all girls)

- Guy with dog: cute. Guy rolling around making an ass of himself with dog: irresistable.

- When in doubt, give us a gift certificate to a spa. When you're sure, give us a diamond ring. (aaaww)


03 July 2005

a better cause

last night until wee hours in the morning, i was watching this LIVE 8 CONCERT.. an emotional event which is held in 8 countries around the world, screaming in one voice --- to make poverty history.. big stars, great performers & millions of people took part in this concert.. it would have been one hell of an experience if i were really in one of those venues (uk, usa, germany, italy, russia, japan, germany, canada)..

this subject really caught my attention & awareness.. when i woke up this afternoon, i was tuned in MTV Europe.. the program is airing a documentary presented by Chris Martin of Coldplay.. he witnessed a first hand experience (in Ghana) of how poverty-stricken Africa is.. hair-raising scenes were unfolded in front of me.. children with no home, no food, no family are dying.. some as young as four are already working hard (harder than i am) just to live.. i've seen worse cases of poverty back home but never been as worst as what i've seen today..

the aim of this event is to ask for support, not money.. to put pressure on these 8 people from the richest countries around the world who will attend the G8 Summit this week.. organizers laid what they want to these rich people to consider: trade justice, debt cancellation, more & better aid.. all these for the people of Africa whose mortality declines fast (in their campaign ad it says, in three seconds a child dies of poverty).. i do understand that these 8 powerful leaders have their own problems in their own worlds but i think with their richness, giving in wouldn't hurt them a bit.. i admire Sir Bob Geldof, organizer of this historical event for his compassionate effort to make a difference..

as a closing part to this post, i would like to ask a favor from you, my guest to offer your support on this humanitarian project.. in our own little way, let's try to make a difference..

to support, please click on the campaign ad (make poverty history 2005) on the side bar..

("if someone asks a favor of me, it means i still have a good use on this earth" - fifth mountain, paulo coelho)